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Joy & Healing

Good morning friends!  How was the start to the weekend last night?!  Hope you were able to take some time off from school/work to relax and refresh.  I spent my night going to ring dunks and midnight yell [don’t ask] and am ready to get in some shopping today for my cardio 😉 as a reward for pwning my interviews yesterday.  I’m SO glad yall are all on the carb-overdose-before-bed train with me…and like some of you said, it does make me sleep harder and longer.  Win for everyone.

Speaking of carbs, breakfast was a simple bowl of cereal-Kashi Crunch, Multigrain Cheerios, cinnamon, flaxseed with coconut milk, with a side of strawberries [out of the container, no less]

So this topic doesn’t directly have to do with health and fitness, but I want to hear your thoughts!  It’s been on my heart all week, but I’ve been putting it off because of school and pure laziness.

Both my ED days and being in college has made me extremely selfish, as I’m sure many of you can relate.  It’s all about when I want to eat, when I want to go to bed/wake up, when I need to study, when I need to do this and do that.  If what I’m doing fits into your schedule, then great, we can hang out.  But if not then sucks to suck.  [It even bothers me how much I say “I” on the blog]

“When we live self-centered lives, we are denied the joy of delighting in others.”

As of right now, I would say that I’m 95% healed from an ED.  I thought it would be a walk in the park if I could just get over that hill, but what followed was severe depression and anxiety.  Which is still self-centered, focusing on my problems, my sadness, my lack of hope.

“Nobody should seek his own god, but the good of others.” – 1 Corinthians 10:24

Coming back to school, I was still at the bottom of all bottoms, and was ready to take on counseling and medicine so I could get back to ‘normal’ (whatever that is) and move forward.  I’m open about my faith on my blog because I know that God is the only reason I’m alive and thriving and healthy today.  I couldn’t have healed myself through my own power.  Yet things aren’t always bright and dandy in the faith area either.  It’s been a struggle to go to church on a weekly basis and to try to get involved in something Christian-oriented on campus because well, I just haven’t been feelin it.

But this is why God is so so cool. Every morning when I hesitantly open my bible, every sermon I’ve heard, comments from friends have all been directing me towards the same thing – focus on others. Not as a distraction from my own ‘problems’ but because there is serious joy to be found in being a shoulder for someone and praying over someone who needs it more than I do.

My focus is always down at myself, but when I lift my eyes and look at the people walking by me on campus, my roommates, strangers at the gym, I can see the hurt in their lives as well.  I can’t fix whatever they’re going through…I know that God can though.  Simply praying for other peoples’ hearts instead of my own has brought enough joy in and of itself.  It’s incredible how doing things for other people-even if it’s just asking how their day was or an unnoticed prayer-can make all the difference.

Every organization I’ve joined in college has been to further my social life and my resume.  So I dropped everything I was involved in the past two years and joined Global Justice-which is a small group of students who sincerely want to bring attention to social injustices around the world.  Talk about taking the focus off of myself.  I get so caught up in my little bubble of nothingness that I forget to notice hardships people face all over the world.  Taking the focus off of yourself brings healing, in whatever way you need to be healed.

If you need a little inspiration, I suggest you go here and read about the war going on in the Congo and the desire to bring kid soldiers out of that environment and into love, education, and healing.  It’s not about comparing problems with another person, it’s about feeling someone else’s hurt and realizing whatever you’re going through isn’t the end of the world. There is  joy to be found through being there for someone else.

[I’ll definitely be talking alot about Falling Whistles in the weeks to come.  I had never heard of it before last week, yet it’s been on my heart x294948 so be readdddaaayyyy.]

“But if anyone has the world’s goods and sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against him, how does God’s love abide in him?” -1 John 3:17


Sorry for such a wordy and confusing post!  Enjoy your Saturday (especially if football is involved) and say a little prayer for a stranger today.  Be on the lookout for the joy that comes with that 😀

What organization or non-profit really tugs at your heart? For me, anything that supports oppressed kids makes me want to go adopt them all. 
What are your weekend plans?
Shopping, lots of studying, bonding with the roomie
Does shopping count as cardio?  
Yes it is.  Don’t tell me it isn’t.  



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Happy weekend!  How was your Friday night? I had a girls night and went to see One Day and bawled my eyes out.  Which can mean one thing and one thing only-froyo.  [If you want to cry and need an excuse to indulge in some ice cream, One Day is your movie.]

This morning started off swell with a cereal bowl, something I’ve gone way too long without.

Multigrain Cheerios, Kashi Crunch, wheat bran, frozen blueberries, and Arrowhead Mills Puffed Rice Cereal thanks to the wonderful people at Swanson Health Products.  Kashi is my homegirl, but sometimes I need something a bit less dense.  The puffed rice cereal added a light and fluffy texture and I was left satisfied for quite a few hours without feeling like a bloated cow.  The taste wasn’t extravagant, but I’m a huge stickler about texture, and these were phenom.

With breakfast under my belt, I was ready to tackle a good day…until my eyes feasted upon some ticks roaming around on the couch.  Swollen, blood-thirsty dementor ticks.  Be thankful no pictures were taken.

1.  I am not a bug person.
2.  I slept on this couch 2 nights ago.
3.  I am not a bug person.

We have 2 labs that I guess tracked them in, so now we’re all on edge and having the fake itches.  If you’ve ever had a tick problem, how do you get rid of them?  I don’t want them sucking out my soul tonight while I sleep.

Speaking of sucking souls, school is slowly sucking my energy already.  Two weeks in and I’m pooped.  Thank God (again) for Starbucks and caffeine.

This is what my day will consist of yet again.  But what would a weekend be in this hicktown without a little country music?  I’m giving the twang one last shot at a country music festival today, and after that we’re officially breaking up.  Not that we were ever together.

And it will also consist of this: good food.

brown rice, sauteed veggies in asian sauce, topped with corn, avocado, tilapia

Cookie dough Ice cream smoothie with Brown Rice Protein powder.  Best. Addition. Ever.  It doesn’t have a funky aftertaste or clump up like whey sometimes does.  I also made my pancakes with this protein powder (sans egg) and I couldn’t get enough of the flavor.  New favorite protein fo sho.

Kettle corn topped with melted dark chocolate and Swanson Organic Coconut Oil.  So long EVOO, I’m loving the sweetness the coconut oil adds to just about everything!

Including roasted green bean fries.  Another new addiction.

Enjoy your Saturday and say a prayer of THANKS for your family and friends, and for the families who lost a loved one on 9/11.  So thankful for the people who choose to devote their life to protecting us and our country!


HOW DO YOU KILL A TICK!?! These little monsters are immortal.
What does your weekend consist of? 


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Welcome to What I’m Doing Wednesday.  I may have jinxed myself last week when I bragged about blogging everyday, because it’s gone downhill fast ever since.  I’m still here though!  Just trying to figure out how exactly to fit blogging into a busy schedule without compromising studying and friend time! [Any tips?!]

Routine is my middle name, in fact, it should be my first name.  Being a stickler for routines ended me up in a bad spot, so this semester I’m focusing on straying from said routine.  There are some benefits to having a routine-like waking up at a consistent time every morning, making sure to eat, etc-but revolving my life around routine is not an option anymore.  So YES I’d like to get in a “routine” of blogging to be able to write evrrrrry day. But as long as I’m under the financial coverage of my parents, school has to come first.  I don’t want to set up a routine to ensure a post everyday because I KNOW it’ll be broken tomorrow.  This is yet another baby step in being spontaneous!

This basically summarizes my mornings…slurping down a cookie dough smoothie (1/3 cup oats, 1 scoop protein powder, cinnamon, 1 tsp chia seeds, frozen banana, dark chocolate pb, 2/3 cup almond milk) every morning.  When I get hooked on something, I get really hooked.

But this happens first and foremost.  Coffee God.  Getting up early and getting to sit in the stillness of the morning and spending time with the Creator, whoooop!  Having a hot cup of coffee doesn’t suck either, especially now that the weather is chillay!

And then I get my workout on.  Yes, I feel mighty awkward posting this picture, but tan muscles…here I come.

Class. Eat. Class. Eat. Class. Repeat.

red bell pepper & spinach tuna boats (mixed with cottage cheese), extra tuna mixed with corn, almond butter toast

blueberry & peach smoothie with kashi berry crunch

vanilla chobani with frozen blueberries, kashi berry, almond butter

lots of sweet potatas with whatever i can find thrown on top! scrump-delly-umptious

And then I do things like Water Zumba-only a great workout for the tummy [from laughing].  I have a new respect for the elderly who do water aerobics on a regular basis…moving in water is TOUGH.

Attend meeting after meeting:

Go to concerts and go [country] dancing:

Which might I add, probably isn’t what you think.

And in the midst of it, I forget to take pictures.  Except for when I eat some more:

I just got my Swanson products in the mail (SCORE) so I’m on the lookout for yum recipes using wheat bran/coconut oil/pumpkin seeds/rice protein/kamut puffs all in one.  Review coming asap!


Have you ever tried Aqua Zumba?  Or any water aerobics?
How do you fit blogging into your daily schedule?  I could read and write blogs for hourssssss, there is no self control when it comes to my computer.


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Finding positives in the midst of an empty fridge

It’s official: I am back at school.  I think the sky is just as bummed as I am because after a three month drought, it’s FINALLY RAINING!  Oh how beautiful it was to sleep in the rain last night.  Also, after three months, I finally have a to-do list.  In other words, I actually have stuff to do! Hallelujah…

My emotions are all over the place about being back at school already, BUT in hopes of maintaining a positive attitude to start off a fresh year, I’ll save that to sort out in tomorrow’s post.  First thing I checked when I got here was ze pantry.  What else would take priority?

My stomach cringed at the sight of Poptarts, Oreos, Cheezits, Chips, fake PB, chips chips chips, mac & cheese.  A grocery shopping sesh is way overdue.  PS can you spot my little corner of the pantry?

AB, multiple jars of PB, agave; unpictured almond milk, flaxseed, chia seeds, seaweed snackies

One good thing about coming back to school: grocery shopping.  As I was creeping on blogs over the past week, I seriously was jealous at all of your extravagant grocery shopping trips.  Today is myday and I cannot wait to get my hands on some new foods 😀

An empty fridge is not something I roll with.  Fruit, fresh veggies, yogurt, cottage cheese?

Luckily we already have the necessary cans of cinnamon, sea salt, garlic powder, and baking supplies so I can get my bake on if nothing else.

And thankfully, my wonderful father sent me off with a year’s month’s supply of Kashi.

And I was able to snag a few essential goodies at Target to enjoy my first meal at the new house.  Another good thing about coming back to school: new dishes.  To say I was getting sick of those green and yellow flower plates back home is an understatement.

Toasted bagel with mustard and veggie burger patty; frozen broccoli and zucchini tossed with garlic powder, salt, and freshly ground pepper

Lesson #1: never eat frozen zucchini.
Lesson #2: water tastes better from a Harry Potter cup. real talk.

After working sooooo hard – but not really,my room is still a mess – I figured I earned multiple bowls of cereal.  Best midnight snack?  I would say so.

Original puffins, raw oats, dark DARK chocolate for good measure

Other positives about coming back to school:
Getting to learn again.  Call me a nerd and I’ll love you forever-but I LOVE SCHOOL.  Don’t love tests, but cracking open a brand new used textbook  and getting to challenge my brain again gets me giddy.
Getting to worship God with good friends.  I’m blessed to go to a school where God is so evident in almost everything.  I’m excited to reconnect and get to see God move like cray cray this semester.
Living with my bfffffffs.  After a bad rooming situation last year, I’m more than ready to have fun and have a place to call home with lovely ladies.
Possibly joining a *real* gym.  And by real, I mean a gym you pay for.  There is a student rec center, but it’s always packed…and I just don’t feel like having to wait hours to get in a good workout.  Back home, I go to a local gym that’s free for neighborhood residents.  Can a poor college student on a tight budget afford to take a glimpse in the real world?  We shall see.

I’m off to enjoy the sound of rain and a cloudy sky over a good breakfast after sleeping in 🙂  Have a great Thursday and good luck to everyone starting classes today!


Have you ever tried frozen zucchini?  After one piece, I wanted to vomit.  I won’t judge if you like it though!
What’s your favorite thing about going back to school?  Learning, meeting new people, getting in a routine are all dandy for me.


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More energy without oatmeal

The world might be coming to an end.  The biggest abomination of my life summer has occurred; the thing I’ve always dreaded has happened.

For breakfast, I went for a typical bowl of oats before hitting the gym.  I had a few bites and then bam, I couldn’t swallow the oatmeal anymore.  I’m. Sick. Of. Oatmeal.  As you know, I hate wasting food, but I couldn’t force myself to eat something I wasn’t feeling.

I poured myself a bowl of Kashi and Cinnamon Chex and my throat opened back up again.  My crazy brain isn’t totally okay with subbing sugar-infested cereal for healthy oatmeal.  But I’ve learned that giving into a craving is much healthier than forcing something down you don’t want.  So my brain will just have to accept that.  So long for now, oatmeal. 😦

School is just around the corner, which means time management and extra coffee-two things I let go of this summer.  Saying I’m nervous about this semester would be an understatement, but I’ll be devoting a whole post to that topic later next week.

Monster, 5-hour energy, all-nighters just ain’t my thang.  I’m always looking for ways to “boost energy” besides getting an adequate amount of sleep, so this article I stumbled across was really helpful!  Healthy and easy ways to gain more energy?  What do I have to lose?

1.  Look to the light.

If only that was what I woke up to every morning.  Supposedly, spending two minutes every morning looking at natural light shuts down the production of melatonin in your brain, which causes us to feel tired.  For those of us that wake up welllll before the sun is out, I’m sure this little trick works at any point in the day.  God gave us light for a reason, so use it!

2.  Eat a banana.  

Done and done.  “Experts credit this fruit’s hefty amount of potassium–a mineral that stimulates muscles, nerves and brain cells to function at their peak.”  Not only do they boost energy in the morning, but they’re the perfect pre-workout fuel, post-workout fuel, or bedtime snack for a restful night of sleep.

3.  Stretch.

If you can, sun salutations will give you energy and a new mindset like no other.  If you’re not a yogi or feel awkward doing this in public-which I totally understand-the study suggests doing a few neck rolls, shoulder shrugs, and stretching out your back by doing toe-touches.  At any time of the day, stretching invigorates your muscles and gets that O2 flowing like it should be.

4.  Mint gum.

The act of chewing and mint flavor stimulates the trigeminal nerve, which wakes up the brain.  Back in highschool, our school handed out peppermints during state standardized tests because it “makes you think smarter.”  Even if it doesn’t make you smarter, it still tastes pretty darn good.

5.  Laugh.

Whether it’s talking to a friend or watching a TV show that’s guaranteed to make you giggle, laughing cuts fatigue and makes you feel alive.  Laughing is definitely something I missed when I was at my lowest point in the ed days, and it does make a huge difference in how you live your life and feel about yourself.

6.  Brush your hair.

Is it gross that I never brush my hair?  I promise it’s not a tangled, gnarly mess.  I just never have the need to!  But according to the study, it stimulates the nerve endings on your scalp, which reduces stress and helps you sleep better for a more energetic day tomorrow.  It feels even better if you get someone else to do it for you 😉


What’s something you do to feel energized?  
Yoga: YAY or nay? 




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Happy WIAW!  Wednesdays are so much better when you get to spend hours looking at food pictures. Am I right?

Instead of prepping for this famous day, I spent yesterday soaking in my last day of work all day.  I spent all summer working at a local coffee shop and loveeeeeedddd every second.  While I’m thankful for the blessing of an education, I wouldn’t mind sticking around to serve coffee to the caffeine-deprived 🙂  So here, you get what I actually ate Wednesday.

 I don’t what the deal is, but today has been snacks galore.  If I showed you everything I’ve grabbed, you would think I had just fasted for 18 months.  But no that’s not the case.  Yes there’s so much guilt just waiting for me to pay attention to it, but I refuse to give into those thoughts.  My whole plan to eat more and eat when I’m hungry, even if it’s really often, has been really difficult.  BUT if I’m hungry, I’m hungry!

Cookie dough cereal with nat pb, chia seeds, topped with Cinnamon Chex, Kashi, raisins, extra cinnameister and almond milk. Per-fec-tion.

I took your flawless advice and used my oat bran to make muffins!  This may have been the best idea all summer.  These muffins are dense, but sweet, grainy, and bran-y. So, so good.Oat Bran Muffins
Adapted from Joy of Baking1 cup whole wheat flour
1 cup oat bran
1/3 cup light brown sugar
1.5 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/4 tsp salt
1/4 tsp cinnamon
1 tsp lemon zest
1 large egg, beaten
1-1/4 cup milk (I used skim)
1/4 cup honey (I used agave)
1 tsp vanilla extract
2 Tbsp canola oil
Any add-ins you wantMix dry and wet separately.  Pour wet into dry.  Bake at 400 degrees for 16-20 minutes.

One bowl of cereal isn't enough for one day - Kashi Berry Crunch & Kashi Crunch, cinnamon, flaxmeal, topped with blue/raspberries, almond milk and plain greekyo

I really think I could eat cereal every meal of every day and not get 100% sick of it.  Can you believe this teensy salad was $12.00?!  I don’t mind spending that much on a meal here and there, but for a taco salad? Seriously? Since I won’t be able to afford dinner tonight, this was last night’s dinner.  Iceberg lettuce (blech), tomatoes, queso fresco, refried beans, grilled chicken, and avocado smothered in gallons of salsa. Sorry for such a blah post.  Hope you’re enjoying HUMP DAY and are eating like there’s no tomorrow 🙂Question: What’s one thing you could eat and never get sick of?


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While I’m waiting

I’m not completely done with the process of recovery, but the past eight months have been a steady incline out of that dark world.  I’ve said before that God deserves all of the credit for pulling me out of the messy life I made for myself; I’ll stick to that belief til the day that I die.

As I gained back my sanity and my personality, friends/a boyfriend/adventure/change were on my mind and I was ready to get back in the saddle of life.  I understood why I didn’t have all of that during the first steps of my recovery-it wasn’t something I could handle and I wasn’t ready emotionally.

Don’t get me wrong, there are still plenty of bad days.  Fat days.  I’m 100% positive their reoccurrence will diminish over the years to come but they do still come with a vengeance.  For the most part though, I’m better.  (I hope I don’t jinx myself by saying that.)  No more restriction lists.  No more guilt 24/7.  No more saying no to food that I didn’t prepare.

Now that I’m at that place, I’ve kinda been like HEY GOD I’M READY. Bring on the friends! Bring on the boy! Bring on the travel and the study abroad opportunities!  I have felt ready to handle all of that for about a month now, yet here I am still waiting for all of that to magically appear.  I’ve already wasted two years, why should I have to wait any longer?

And then I read this this morning – Wastelands

There are dry, fruitless, lonely places in each of our lives, where we seem to travel alone, sometimes feeling as though we must surely have lost the way. What am I doing here? How did this happen? Lord, get me out of this!

He does not get us out. Not when we ask for it, at any rate, because it was He all along who brought us to this place. He has been here before–it is no wilderness to Him, and He walks with us. There are things to be seen and learned in these apparent wastelands which cannot be seen and learned in the “city”–in places of comfort, convenience, and company.

God does not intend to make it no wasteland. He intends rather to keep us–to hold us with his strength, to sustain us with his sure words–in a place where there is nothing else we can count on.

“God did not guide them by the road towards the Philistines, although that was the shortest…God made them go round by way of the wilderness towards the Red Sea” (Ex 13:17,18 NEB).

Imagine what Israel and all of us who worship Israel’s God would have missed if they had gone by the short route–the thrilling story of the deliverance from Egypt’s chariots when the sea was rolled back. Let’s not ask for shortcuts. Let’s keep alert for the wonders our Guide will show us in the wilderness.

-Elisabeth Elliot (found here)

It was a beautiful reminder that the past two years wasn’t a waste and this waiting period doesn’t have to be wasted either.  I didn’t come out of it learning nothing-it changed me as a person for the better.  Yes it took longer than I would’ve liked to get out of that darkness, but it did happen. Does it make it easier to keep on waiting around for my wish list to happen? Nope. But it does make waiting easier because I know my life and my joy is in the hands of an awesome God who loves me and has my best interests at heart.

Just some food for thought:

Plain greek with Kashi, honey, golden raisins

Sweet potato with maple syrup & flax, fresh corn off the cob, steamed broccoli with mustard

Late-night baked apple pie oatmeal, with a side of peanut butter jar just in case

This morning's pre-workout breakfeast - Kashi, Fiber One golden squares, raisins, protein powder, flax, almond milk!

PS my first homemade nut butter!

Question:  Ever felt like you’ve had to wait *too long* for something good to happen?
What was the best part of your weekend! 


“It is strange that the years teach us patience; that the shorter our time, the greater our capacity for waiting.” – Elizabeth Taylor



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