“A man is what he thinks about all day long.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Quotes that make you rethink your life are the shizzznettttttt. Sometimes I’ll Google quotes and just sit and read. People are so wise!
I’ve been putting off a post about why I don’t want to be back at my school this semester, but I don’t want to dwell on it and make everything worse. In a nutshell:
- my ED days began here. I haven’t lived a day here without those rampant thoughts racing through my mind. Restricting me from eating, from going out with friends, and from living. Being around so many people the same age draws me into the comparison trap like no other, making these thoughts worse and worse and worse and worse…
- I lost most of my friends over the course of last year because of that. I isolated myself, and I’m paying the steep price right now. Making new friends ain’t the easiest thing for this girl, but I’m hoping that everything falls into place this semester.
- discomfort. Have you ever been to a place where you just don’t feel comfortable or you don’t fit in? I just happened to make that place my school. Last year it was a daily struggle to get my butt out the door and go to class and live in this city.
- being away from my family. I’m a family girl, nough said.
In the past, all I could think of was how much I hated it here. Because that’s *what I thought about all day long* I was miserable and lonely. Yesterday I could have sat around and thought about how much I hated it and how I didn’t want to be back. Instead, I tried to get excited about a fresh start and the positives about being back. And what a difference it makes!
[I completed one of my August goals – going out of my comfort zone. A year away from going out made me miss it and I’m so glad I decided to skip my early bedtime in my comfort zone and go out with my roomie. This even included having [another] bowl of cereal late at night and not eating “on schedule”. Vick.tor.ee.]
My point is, spending all day thinking that I’m fat is going to make me feel fat, lose confidence, and hate life. Spending all day thinking about how I hate it here will bring me back to that place of misery and loneliness. Spending all day fretting about working out will make me a crazy woman and no fun to be around. If I think about love, friends, progress, family, God all day, then that’s who I’m going to be. That’s what my life will be about. That’s what it should be about.
I didn’t make it to the grocery store yesterday, so I’m living on slim pickens. Here are picchas of my (unfinished) room:
Balcony - FAVORITE thing ever! Hello blogging and coffee while watching the sunrise
I mean, if there aren’t any other positives, atleast I’m living in a house…a place where I can call home!
The only foodie pic I’ve gotten so far – due to my friends’ lack of knowledge about my blog – was the most perfect breakfast besides a cookie dough oatmeal smoothie.
Protein pancakes a la Gina! I subbed a flax egg for a real egg, and 2 Tbsp quick oats for flour and they turned out surprisingly
I’m heading back home for the night for a funeral, my brother’s first cross country meet, and a baking class. Thankfully I don’t have to conquer my fear of the rec center yet. Have a SUPERFANTASTIC Friday and a beautiful, restful weekend!
Do you have a quote that you live by?
What are you looking forward to over the next few months?